"It is more wonderful than I could have ever imagined it would be..."
I think people tried to tell me, but honestly, how do you articulate these feelings I have? It's utterly impossible. Even now as I type all of this I know I am shortchanging you. Because in all honestly, no words are fitting. There is no way to articulate what all of this does to my soul. But I know all the other mothers out there know what I am talking about because they have felt it too. It's just something you need to experience to really understand. How blessed are we to be given this precious gift of motherhood from our Heavenly Father? How could I ever repay him? How did I get so lucky? Life couldn't possibly get better than this.
This is what life is all about. This is everything. I will never ever be the same again. I feel like my eyes have truly been opened. Nothing else matters but my family. Nothing. I thought I already learned that lesson but I was only barely scratching the surface of that. A few days after Gavin was born, my sister asked me if I looked at the world differently now? I answered "He is my world now. I just want the rest of the world to go away."
Speaking of family... I can't express how grateful I am for my own mother. Throughout my pregnancy, my labor, and since Gavin was born she has been just incredible. When she walked into the delivery room when I was going through labor she was like an angel that fell from Heaven to take my hand and help me through it all. And of course now that I have a child of my own, I feel as though I can really empathize and appreciate all she did and has done for me and my siblings throughout our lives. I am really lucky to have her.
Anyway... Now that I am feeling a bit more settled, I look forward to receiving more visitors and introducing Gavin to all of you. Feel free to call or message me if you would like to stop by. And thank you so much for all the well wishes and congratulations and offers to bring food and gifts. It really means a lot to me knowing I have so many loving and caring people in my life. I look forward to returning the favor to each of you someday.
I apologize for not being as responsive to messages as I usually am but as you can see, my heart and mind have been wrapped around some little guy's finger and there is nowhere else in this world I would rather be.